C. A. Baker (cabakerwrites) wrote in sfandf_writers,
C. A. Baker

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Taking Care of Me...and the End to a Difficult Chapter

Well, this week has been one of the more stressful in my life. I had to have surgery this past Wednesday, and I've spent the rest of the week recouperating. I thought this would give me more time to write, but the strain on my body between the horrible anxiety before the surgery and the hangover from the anesthesia drugs took its toll. The anxiety left almost no room in my mind for writing, and the hangover and exhaustion delayed my writing until the weekend.

But despite all of this, I'm proud of myself. I was able to finish a very difficult chapter. If you've seen my tumbler post, you already know how much I hated writing chapter 7. And I'm not even really sure it is all that bad of a chapter, really. I just didn't have the same enthusiasm for it, and I felt like I was doing it all wrong the whole time. I have some people critiquing it for me this week, and I'm hoping they will be able to tell me whether it is truly crap or not.

And, honestly, I'm okay with writing crap...or at least I've decided to be okay with it. It is my first draft after all, and its better to have crap written on the page rather than nothing written on the page. Crap can be changed, edited, and shined to a high shine, but nothing is still nothing.

So, it's back to my day job tomorrow morning, and I'm sure I have a huge pile of work to come back to. This may impact my writing schedule goals as well for a few days, but I really hope that I'll be able to keep it up regardless. I'm hoping to set aside at least an hour, even on busy days, to write before bed. Maybe I'll even write in bed.... It could work.

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